Sad Morning.

Ladies and Gentleman..
This is a sad one, and I am going to type has much as I can with out crying so hard, I can;t see anything..

My dog, B.B. passed away sometime in the night. We knew her life was drawing to a close, but, it doesn'thit, til you know there is nothing more to do.

We have had this dog for 15 years, my brother and I were maybe 3, almost 4 and we lived in the country, and we saw ths dog wondering, and we were OBESESSED with animals, and of course my mom said we could keep her. She was the greatest dog you would seriously want for your family. She has brought us so much joy.

She gave us two liters of puppies and always made s smile. I feel like a different version of marley and me!

We knew that this summer/winter was going to be her last, but somewhere inside me, I was hoping that maybe he would somehow get better. She was so old, her black fur turning into white, She had arthritus, and could barely walk up and down the stairs outside.

I feel so bad now, because she would come in to be put in the laundry room, to get out of the heat, and she would whine, because she being this HUGE dog, wated to be a lap dog like our little puppies, I would always yell at her and tell her to shut up and sto whining.. Even going as far as putting her outside back in the heat, so I didn't have to hear her. I would take that back in a second.. If only I could hear her whine.. One more time.

I have been through so much with her. Whenever, I had a fight with a friend, or a boyfriend, she was always the one that I would go to. I would sit outside  and just think and she wouold come walking up to me, putting her nose under my arm, so I would hold her, but in reference she was actually holding me. I know that souunds silly, but when you know a dog for 15 years, you really start to thik of them as your family.

We have this HUGE fenced in backyard, and whenever my mom gardens, B.B. would follow her around.. B.B. LOVED my mom, and my mom loved B.B.. Don't know how I could ever replace her.. I probably won't.

Something just hit me last night, and I knew she was going to die. She had no control of her bowels, and she was lying on her stomach, with her feet spread out, she was breathing will crazy, kind of rapid and kind of slow at the same time. I just went in the laundry room where she was staying and I just layed down next to her and just petted her and told her I loved her. and then she died a few hours later.

I know, I know.. This sounds sappy and sad, But B.B. was my favorite dog in the whole world, and who doesn't cry when their animal dies? SICK PEOPLE!!

R.I.P. B.B
I will post pictures later!
XOXO
Emily.

COLLEGE!!

Hello My loves!
A lot of you guys know that I am now a COLLEGE STUDENT! :). This summer was awful, because I was so nervous about it!! You have no idea, but I normally have anxiety about EVERYTHING, so adding this major life change did not make it any easier. All during the summer, I was so exhausted of being nervous, and when I went to the campus to order my books and I got a job, so I had to rearrange a few of my classes, and for some reason going their by myself, really kind of got me... EXCITED!! I wanted College to start that day, I was so STOKED!! It was like this surge of something ran through me!! I was smiling driving all the way home!! So, the first day came along, and some of my anxiety showed up again, but I was still feeling the excitement. I walked into my first class, and sat down, and looked to my right, and saw an incredibly HOT guy!! We have been talking ever since, because He sits next to me, in my writing class. HUNKA HUNKA BURNING LOVE!! Wow, I sound like a little jr high girl.. haha!! Anyway, I made a few friends, Not the kind that you talk OUTSIDE of class, but When One of us walks in to the room, we all wave and we all kind of sit there and talk before class starts, such an awesome vibe, since there is only about 13 students in each class! :). Wanted to post pictures, but they are on my iPod, so if you want to see them, You can go on my instagram: emmybug26

Update.. 5 months late...

Hello My loves!
How was you summer.. I literally mean that, because I did not post ALL SUMMER!! As today is September 1st! AHH!! Where did the time go. I have a few reasons, as to why I have not posted on here or made any you tube videos.
ONE: In april or may, I was sitting outside on my laptop watching yes dear on youtube, and like an idiot I am, I had it on my lap in the direct sunlight.. BAD MISTAKE! My hard drive Overheated and my computer broke.
TWO: I tried to make a video or blog post on my IPOD TOUCH, but It would never upload correctly, for both sites. So, I thought I would wait..
THREE: This summer has been crazy, If you guys personally know me, As a few of my friends follow this, I have HORRIBLE Anxiety. Therefore, is something major is coming up, I have to brace myself, and this summer I was getting ready for my first day of COLLEGE!!! I will be doing a blog post about college soon!
XOXO.

Titanic!!

So, yes.. I HAD to go see Titanic.. I love this movie!! One of the greatest, and I love all the actors in this film. When I heard that Titanic was coming out in 3D, of course I immedialty got excited! Seeing it in the theaters and especially in 3D, It was GREAT!! Really brought everything back. It was also really sad.. i hadn't cried in that movie in a long time, and I BAWLED like a baby, not as much as hunger games, But I will explain later. I will be doing a video Review on youtube, I PROMISE. Will be doing it on WEDNESDAY!!!!! 

18!!!

Today I turned 18!! Wow, I can't believe I am finally saying that. Things have been crazy the past year, and I am thankful to be alive. People need to know that Suicide is not an option. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I know, that if you guys have watched my Bullying video on YouTube, than you know that I have struggled with that option. This birthday however feel rather weird, but what birthday doesn't. I don't think I have ever met a person on their birthday who feels the age they had just turned, but its not that.. I just feel like some people have put up a wall against me and They can't see or hear me when I talk.. I know I have made a lot of mistakes over the past year.. but that's why you turn another age, to grow, to learn, to blossom. You have to learn to forgive people, no matter what the crime. Isn't that what Jesus did? I hope one day things can be the same, and I can not only be happy, but love myself again. 

Cupcakes Galore!!

Okay, So.. For some reason I was like WANTING to make Cupcakes. like SUPER BADLY!! I didn't eat any, Don't want to break my diet.. BUT, My family did.. I took pictures and for some reason.. They look like POOP on the pictures, but you get the idea!! :). I had so much fun, and can't wait to start to really get good at icing them! :). ENJOY!. Can you tell I LOVE Purple? HAHA!

Book Review

I JUST finished this book for my English class, and I LOVED it. We read a similar book called "ghosts of war", but this book was more funny and such. Ghosts of war was a little more personal, because it was written from an actual solider from the 9/11 war! That book was AWESOME! You should DEF read that book. But, back to Sunrise over Fallujah it was great! However by the end of the book.. I was BAWLING my eyes out! I however could not tell if it was based on a real person, or if the author just did MAJOR research! This review was not very long, BUT, if you are wanting to learn more.. check out my YouTube channel.. Youtube.com/emmybug26. I will be doing one very soon! :)

First Entry.. Lets see.

Hmm.. I don't really know what to say. As I probably don't have any followers yet. I have a few friends that have blogs, and every time I got and look at theirs, it always looks so neat and organized and the minute I went and looked at mine, I was VERY CONFUSED!! YIKES! I hope I can figure this out. Might need to call my friends and tell them to help me out! :)